i iz nao a pee-hech-dee. lolsup?
on a different note, i realized last night that i absolutely hate what i am doing (after 5 years). i have never had any interest whatsoever in financial math and pretty much did it because i thought i could make a lot of money doing it and because my parents told me that i should do it along with a few colleagues who wanted to do it themselves and convinced me i wanted to do it as well. as i shared with a few of you before, i went to med school and after 8 days of attending, decided not to continue and left and then got myself kicked out for lack of a better phrase of the phd program i had immediately entered for not being adequately prepared. i never shared the true reason for making that big of a mistake with my life mostly because it is far too embarrassing and well until i forgive myself for it, it shall stay with me.
my mcat scores are no longer active and after having a rather lengthy talk with my parents who were not entirely supportive of the idea, i decided to take another crack at the mcat. i have enough degrees already from things i didnt want to do myself and i dont think i am that smart. i do work rather hard and have been able to fool people into thinking i was bright enough to deserve a phd. last night, however, marked the first time i wanted to do it for myself. it might just so happen that i quit it this venture as well like i have a track record or doing - first med school, then law school, then financial math but for the first time it will not be because i did something i disliked just because my parents wanted me to do it. the decision feels right mostly because it isnt motivated by a need to make money (law school, financial math) nor based on what my parents want me to do (everything ive done so far). as cliched as it sounds, it feels like a giant weight has been lifted.
looking forward to preparing for this beastly exam again. should be fun.
looks like you were right vicki sorry for disagreeing you all those months ago in chat.