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Well that's very restrictive of you.

Are you interviewing Brent for a job?

I guess that I should elaborate more. I don't have any intentions of a sexual relationship with this boy. I know that even if I wanted to, a romantic relationship is not my strong suit. Given that this young man is so young, that's really a recipe for messing up a young mind. My feelings of guilt before anything at all has even happened are another reason I know that would be a very bad idea. What I would like to achieve Friday, is way of explaining the situation to him in a way that leaves him feeling OK with the fact that our relationship will stay professional and friendly. He was rejected by his biological Father early in his life, and has not had a strong influence from a man in his life. The last thing that I want to do is make him feel rejected one more time. This is a delicate thing to achieve, but I want to believe that it's possible.

So I found out something yesterday, and it has me in a weird place. Only once previously in my career have I ever dated a co-worker. That was a long time ago, in Alaska. We dated a few times, but I didn't develop any real feelings for him, and it didn't end badly, but was a bit awkward for a while. He was actually a few years older than me. And we absolutely never let anyone know about it, as neither of us were out at work. Now some 35ish years later, and I'm learning that another co-worker has a crush on me, and wants to pursue those feelings. I have always been extremely professional at work, mostly because I absolutely had to be. And I definitely have mixed feelings about this happening. There are a couple of issues that have me grappling with this. Firstly, just the fact that it's difficult to date a co-worker. And secondly, the fact that this co-worker is much younger than me. Much, much younger! I discovered this co-worker's feelings from other co-workers. I have had 3 people in our company try to talk me into dating this young man. Even my boss has been encouraging. This fact alone is kind of blowing my mind. The thing is that everyone has kind of taken this young man under their wings, including me. I just didn't realise the feelings were more than admiration for a mentor. My gaydar might be slightly out of tune, but I think the language barrier is more the culprit. Plus, I never expect to be looked upon romantically from someone under 1/3 of my age. This young man started working with us approximately 4 - 5 months back. He's the Nephew of another employee. And both are from Peru. I immediately noticed this young man's desire to learn carpentry, and his natural ability to pick things up quickly. I taught him several things in trim carpentry, and even passed down some tools that I had in duplicate. His Uncle was trying to drop hints, to which I was oblivious (again, the language barrier). But the other day he just came out and told me how his Nephew felt about me. He doesn't seem to be uncomfortable with his Nephew's feelings at all. Even though he's just learning of his Nephew's homosexuality. There's also the cross generational thing, which apparently bothers me more than anyone else in the company. These kinds of relationships are not at all rare in the gay community, nor do they have the same stigma as they might in the heterosexual world. My own belief is that so many gay boys are rejected and unloved by their Fathers, that they seek out a pseudo Father figure in their romantic relationships. And so many gay men that may have always wanted a Son do the same. Anyway, I've been asked if I'd take him to dinner and a movie, and just see where that leads. Now I really like this young man, and he is kind of adorable, but I'm really not the long term involvement type, as well as the generational issue that I can't seem to come to terms with. Mostly I just don't want to hurt his feelings. And leading him on to any type of romantic scenario seems wrong. I'm just not good at relationships. I've always kept my sex life just exactly that...sex. So I have agreed to go to dinner and a movie Friday after work, but I'm anything but comfortable with this at the moment. Any and all advice will be taken in and evaluated. Oh, by the way, his age is 19. Just saying that makes me feel very pedo.

Walnut legs should look good.

Fingers crossed Brent! I'm hoping it happens because I'd love to see you fall off of a more expensive bike.

RIP Mr. Jaffrey. I remember MAD fondly.

Spent an absolutely fabulous Easter Sunday at Compound Bedecarre. Lots of children having a great time hunting for eggs. Great food. And heartwarming feelings just hanging with the Bedecarre siblings. I love that family!

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I bought these shoes to wear to MOA II, over 10 years ago. Never had the occasion to wear them there, or at any other time. I new they were waiting for just the right outfit!

Met a new neighbor... Dude was huge. 5" or so.

Dinny, you have not aged well.

Still got nothin'.

Aren't you worried about being haunted by exotic trees?

I got nothin'.

How do I master these techniques?

Sexy! If you really want to learn about vinyl spinners though, I should introduce you to the guy that basically designed the Colossus. Oh wait.... Nevermind. 😋

Needs more bacon!

Is that British food or prison food? Did you make Joanne mad?

Ira Einhorn, is that you?

About two weeks ago I finished up a job (I'm now on a new job). The homeowner Chris always had a nice plaid shirt on. We got to talking about plaid collections. Although mine was much bigger, he had all Pendleton wool plaid shirts. Very nice plaid shirts, for those not in the know. Today my boss met with Chris and his wife. Pretty much a final meeting. Chris asked him to give me a box. This was the box... Pendleton has many styles. My favorite being the "Board" edition. It's a casual style, not too western looking. And made to be worn untucked. A beautiful Board edition! These are in the $150 neighborhood. I love my job!

To elaborate I was standing on the chair, using it as a ladder. The seat caved in under me. But still pretty stupid.

I once fell off of a chair and my hand came down on a stagnant chain saw that was setting on the floor. It made a 1/2" cut in my hand, not too deep. It did however leave a small but noticeable scar. When showing that scar, I refer to it as my "chainsaw accident". You can now show your scar and refer to it as your "shaving accident".

I can usually judge my day by how many batteries I need to pull from the box. Today is a busy day.