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I am still in my second year of classes. Just go to the ER on random evenings to help out and try to get to know the physicians as I hope to work in the ER some day. I have 2 years to figure out what exactly I want to practice and I'll be going through quite a few specialities in my third year that will hopefully help that decision. I realize now that the ER is where one sees people at their worst hours but it is not something that I truly understood earlier. Physicians often told me that once they are done with their shift, they truly are done. No work ever goes home with them and that was a big reason why I was drawn to emergency medicine but I just don't see how the crazy things that come in every day don't go home with the doctors. How do you not think about 8 year olds getting sexually assaulted or a parent losing a child to a distracted driver? I wanted to go into EM because I didn't want to have to deal with patients in a longitudinal manner but it seems like that is preferred to seeing very rough cases in a short amount of time. Perhaps radiology/pathology is where I need to be...

The hardest part is not the gross aspect but keeping myself from judging the patient and his circumstances. All the good physicians I have met have either lost their humanity and things like these just don't phase them anymore or they find a way to separate their own feelings from what brought the patient in. It's very hard for me to genuinely want to help a guy who was brought into the ER at 11pm for alcohol poisoning, discharged at 8am and then brought back in for passing out drunk next to a store at 4pm. I realize that as a society we are judged and held accountable based on how we help and treat those who are less fortunate but wouldn't our efforts be better directed trying to help those who want our help? I was far more idealistic when I was just sitting in the classroom. Now that I have to type up charts and stay up all night monitoring drunk guys, who do the same thing everyday without any feeling of remorse, I'm starting to grow resentful. Hope I can learn to set that part of my brain aside when I am actually treating patients.

Unfortunately, you would still have to go through this regardless of what you wish to specialize in. During the third and fourth year of medical school, students rotate through required specialities for at least a month. Some like family medicine are typically 2-3 months. Even if you wanted to go into plastics you would still have to do your share of genital exams whether you wanted to or not. Monday we learn to do prostate exams. Hooray!!! NOT...

Learned how to perform a male genital exam today. On a patient with syphilis. Who had a syphilitic chancre in a place where you really don't want a chancre. The size of a dime. The only thing I remember the resident saying the entire time - "always double glove." Pretty sure I will be triple gloving from now on for everything. PS. Sorry for your toe nail

I wouldnt have known. Never had spam either.

Looking forward to your pictures Jeff.

I still remember the first time I had sushi at the meet you hosted, Gene. Was a weird texture but I've come to love it since then.

Zeiss 15/2.8. Set it to 3ft and f/8 and shoot away. Fastest AF too

I understand it from a business point of view (somewhat) but seems very off-putting. Felt worse when the Chicago Sun laid off all their staff photographers. Something to be said for the quality of work and loyalty. Handing the journalists an iPhone and telling them to take pictures to support whatever they write isn't going to lead to the same quality of work as by a Pulitzer winner.

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Finished The Wire on Amazon tonight. Great show. Better than Breaking Bad/The Killing? I don't know. Certainly not for me. Maybe better than The Killing but Breaking Bad sits very comfortably in first place for me. Except for the fly episode, I don't really remember there being a bad/slow Breaking Bad episode. There were a couple of very slow Wire episodes.

Out of curiosity, do you still prefer the L glass to sigma art, Jeff?

Went to a Ben Howard concert in Miami with Julie. Had been looking forward to it since late last year when I had purchased the tickets. Don't know if he was having a shitty day or was upset at the show not being sold out but he literally said 3 words to the audience besides the actual songs - "good evening Miami." At the end of the set, everyone just walked off stage. Lights came on. Everyone thought there was more to come so no one moved. About 5 minutes later we saw the sound guy pack up for the night so we took that as our cue to leave. He was no where close to being as enthusiastic as I had seen him in other concerts on youtube. Might just have been an off night. Might not have had as reverent a crowd as he is used to playing for in Europe. I enjoyed it as much as I could. Julie left very underwhelmed.

Yup played with the individual sliders as well. It decreased the width of the bands ever so slightly but not by an appreciable amount.

Hey now. I don't have anything against Jeff...

SOOC. Holy green and purple fringing. I've gotta have the worst luck when it comes to the 85/1.8G. Tried shooting some portraits at f/1.8, f/2, f/2.8, f/3.5 and all I got was a bunch of blurry crap. From f/5.6 and above its fine but begs the question, why not just use a shitty 85mm lens if I am just going to use it at f/5.6... Ps. The image is starting to grow on me but I can't get rid of the fringing. Lightroom's remove CA button doesn't do shit. Any advice on how to deal with it?

Revisited one of the images from 2 summers ago.

Id get the 135 apo before I got either of the otus'

I fear the D800 sensor will be left wanting more with the 24D

I can shave with the sigma 50 wide open. I doubt the nikon 50 will give me the same performance wide open or even close to it but I don't use that focal length enough. I took it with me to NYC this past winter break and hated lugging it around with the D800. It really got very annoying after a while to the point where I switched it out for the 85 even though I missed a lot of shots due to the lens being very long. Back when I had the sigma 35, I got the nikon 50/1.8D which is ok from around f/5.6 for like $80. In a pinch, I could just use that if I really needed a 50mm lens as it has just been sitting on the shelf this entire time. I used it with the Nikon F5 before I realized the sigma 50 and the nikon 85 worked on the F5 as well. All this talk is making me realize I don't NEED the sigma 50. Its a beautiful lens and great to have around but far too heavy for me. Most likely it'll end up on FM shortly... I had the zeiss 135 briefly and loved the focal length. Makes for tight quarters when trying to shoot indoors but the subject isolation was to die for. The 85/1.8 is good but I feel like I don't get nearly enough isolation that I could with a 135. I tried the 105DC a while back and it suffered from some very serious CA under f/4. The same was the case with the 135DC which was too expensive and heavy of a lens to carry to just shoot at f/5.6. Half the time I forgot what DC setting I had set it at. I actually grabbed a Rokinon 35/1.4 upon your suggestion a long time ago with a D7000 but I don't think the viewfinder was appropriate for a manual focus lens. The D800 is much better when it comes to that and makes it a lot easier with longer lenses where the transitions are more pronounced. I enjoyed the build quality - it was a hefty lens. I picked up a local rokinon 14/2.8 a while back but it was so decentered I sent it back to the seller. He initially denied any issues but I sent him images taken with the lens and he finally gave me the money back. People have spoken very well of the 14/2.8 and for the price I would have picked it over the nikon 20 in a heartbeat if I didn't have to go through 10 copies to find one properly aligned. And then there is the issue of the infinity marker being absurdly inaccurate. Just not a good set up for astrophotography.

Sorry, was thinking of the zeiss 18. All these numbers are starting to mingle. =/ The astrophotography argument is one I like for the extra stop. I just never really thought there was any semblance of shallow DOF with a lens that wide. Always figured everything would be in focus unless one were shooting something very up close. It certainly is climbing up the list of lenses very fast. I might trade my sigma 50 for the nikon 20. For portraits 50 is too wide, and for landscapes the 50 is not wide enough. I rarely have enough time to go walk around and shoot so might be time for the 50 to go. Depending on how things turn out with the new rokinon 135, i might grab that in favor of the nikon 85 but we shall see. With Rokinon you really have to get very lucky to get a good copy.

Very interesting suggestion Peter. Didn't know that lens was already released. The zeiss 15/2.8 is available used around the same price but the filters are very expensive. 77mm filters should be available more readily. I know you love the 14-24. Any thoughts on how it holds up against that lens? I don't really care for the extra stop as I am not going to shoot a 20mm lens at f/1.8.

Very cool images and article. I was surprised I could read the whole thing without having to pay for it.

Couple of updates... Bay Photo is partially sponsoring all the printing for the project. An awesome photographer from Texas, Keith Young, graciously donated a very cool poster - Stay Up and Make Something, to the cause to be auctioned off with proceeds going entirely to the project. You can read about it here... https://ello.co/keithdavisyoung/post/6OqCnIUI6cMfZD1FDHvBfw We just have a few more days to go and would greatly appreciate donations or loans of any kind.

Thanks Gene. It's been a fun morning. Lots of med students from my own school have been coming around to take a look. Even the admitting physician last night didn't believe that I blew out a joint from a sneeze. They thought I got hit with a baseball bat or something but couldn't find any evidence of blunt force trauma. Spoke with the on call psych lady and they finally let me sleep once they realized I wasn't battered. Apparently case like mine only appears once in a blue moon.