Thanks my good Sirs.
Well being aware of it helps a lot. And my limited info about psychology and psychiatry helps further. Actually, as my psychiatrist defines, my regular mood is hypomanic. And I can control myself in manic state, what is devastating for me is depression. I use that disorder for the good, I use it for the creativity it brings.
And about serving as a soldier. I'm an individualist anarchist, at least I consider myself one. So I do not believe in army, I hate guns, violence may result death (I'm okey with fistfights) And certainly I do not want to put my life at risk cuz of bunch of losers cannot handle external affairs. And ofc I do not want to spend 5 month on something I do not believe.
I'll be taken apart from them for a while Dusty, I'll stay at a hotel for a while In istanbul. but All of the remaining kittens are in home now. So my family going to take care of them till I got them new home.